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Notorious BIG - Everyday Struggle

(via 90s90s90s)

If you’re thinking about killing yourself, please hear me out.

You are better than what they might say about you and/or what you’ve done. You are better than what you even think as of right now.
You probably don’t believe me, but I swear it’s true.
You MUST know why, right?!
Because you are human and humans make mistakes whether intentional at the time or not.
All that matters is that you WANT change, and I know that you do.
Change is possible, especially if you’re determined.
No matter who you are, what you’ve done, or where you’ve been…it IS possible.
Even at your lowest, you can still climb high.
What you’re feeling right now is not forever because even if you don’t change, everything around you is constantly changing.
Opportunities are opening all around you.
You just have to seek them out.
You’re probably thinking “well what if they don’t work out in the end?”
So what?
That just means it’s time to look for another opportunity.
Life is full of them, you know this.
Most of you reading this most likely don’t live in a third world country, so you’re constantly given second chances.
Whether maybe you were a criminal, did a line of work you’re ashamed of, or just did shitty things in your past…YOU are more than that because you want change.
Fight for it.
Find something new.
Do something that makes you happy and/or is important to you.
Whether it be getting involved in art, volunteering, getting involved with what you can do to change the world in some aspect, or even if you just want to change your old habits or bad choices…YOU CAN CHANGE.

I PROMISE you there is always SOMETHING to find living for.
….and even if you don’t think anyone cares about you, I do…even if I’ve never met or spoken to you because I know you have the potential to change something in your life to be happy.
Now I challenge you to make everyone else see that in you.

If you’re thinking about killing yourself, please hear me out.

You are better than what they might say about you and/or what you’ve done. You are better than what you even think as of right now.
You probably don’t believe me, but I swear it’s true.
You MUST know why, right?!
Because you are human and humans make mistakes whether intentional at the time or not.
All that matters is that you WANT change, and I know that you do.
Change is possible, especially if you’re determined.
No matter who you are, what you’ve done, or where you’ve been…it IS possible.
Even at your lowest, you can still climb high.
What you’re feeling right now is not forever because even if you don’t change, everything around you is constantly changing.
Opportunities are opening all around you.
You just have to seek them out.
You’re probably thinking “well what if they don’t work out in the end?”
So what?
That just means it’s time to look for another opportunity.
Life is full of them, you know this.
Most of you reading this most likely don’t live in a third world country, so you’re constantly given second chances.
Whether maybe you were a criminal, did a line of work you’re ashamed of, or just did shitty things in your past…YOU are more than that because you want change.
Fight for it.
Find something new.
Do something that makes you happy and/or is important to you.
Whether it be getting involved in art, volunteering, getting involved with what you can do to change the world in some aspect, or even if you just want to change your old habits or bad choices…YOU CAN CHANGE.

I PROMISE you there is always SOMETHING to find living for.
….and even if you don’t think anyone cares about you, I do…even if I’ve never met or spoken to you because I know you have the potential to change something in your life to be happy.
Now I challenge you to make everyone else see that in you.

I feel insulted.

For those who don’t REALLY (meaning in detail) care about why im so enraged, here’s the short version first.

Went to the gas station with my boyfriend, pulled up to a pump, gave him all my cash and said “get any snack you want and just tell him to put the change on my pump.” I go in with him and look around while he’s deciding, grab some coffee creamers they have by the coffee machine and put them in my purse while he is checking out. We smile and say thanks and walk out. While he pumps my gas for me, im digging around my car picking up all the silver change when I hear “excuse me, ma’am…MA’AM!!!”. I look up and the cashier from inside is looking at me and says “Did you take anything from the candy bar?” In which I was confused and replied “….uh…no?”. The cashier then claims he saw me put something in my purse and I said “oh yeah! I took some creamers…yknow, cause im usually in here buying coffee in the morning.”…..he then asked to see and I showed him and then he yelled “YEAH WELL YOU NEED TO ASK ME NEXT TIME!” I was so angry that I said “YOU know I’m in here buying coffee among other things every day. I even purchased something tonight, so it is no different than me purchasing a cup of coffee and using creamer for it….just m means you have more coffee for other customers this time.” In which he just repeated what he said last and stormed off.

Okay, maybe that wasn’t all that short, but it made me so angry.
This is a gas station im at DAILY since it’s right across the street, if I wanted to steal, I would’ve done it loooong ago.
I’m pretty well known by the manager and assistant manager and chat it up with them frequently in passing.
Everyone there is so nice to me, except for this one guy who has been giving me the eat shit look every day since he started.
I understand where he might’ve been coming from if he did see me looking suspicious, but once I showed you what it was, don’t continue to go on about me asking you to take something that is free when I buy something EVERY SINGLE TIME I’m in there. Its not like I JUST got creamers and left….even if I did, they’re still free.

I’m just so damn insulted that I got accused of stealing from a place where I know everyone working there and actually enjoy stopping by for my small necessities frequently….and now I’m going to occasionally see the one man who accused me of wronging the establishment….ran by people who I like.